Uncertain....

When I first thought about doing the challenge I was overcome with the thought that just maybe I would FINALLY get to do all that I have wanted to do with my weight, my health (both inside & out), & I would finally be the person I dreamed I could be, I didn't take into consideration all the uncertainties that would come along with it.
Uncertain that I could control my bad eating habits....
Uncertain that I could & would exercise more, that 30 minutes in the gym won't cut it....
Uncertain that nobody would care....
Uncertain that I would allow deep inner feelings to attack me....
Uncertain that my energy level would increase & nothing would get in the way....
Now I understand more, yes after just 5 days, that NOBODY but me can control those eating habits, I am the only one that understands what makes me tick & makes me think I am worth every bit of this challenge, and while I want people to care, I don't want babysitters on my food/exercise intake, just sit by & watch, cheer me on both on good days & mostly on the bad days!!
I have to be the one to motivate myself, because at the end of the day, it is me that decides what I am going to do....and how I am going to do it....
I can't & won't allow the vices from the outside get in the way, I MUST be determined & I must realize that it isn't going to happen over night, I need to MOTIVATE myself & get rid of all the excuses!!
I don't want to be uncertain, I can & will succeed!!