I am still alive....barely

Okay...
its been a while....
well really toooo long....
since I last posted a post....
but I just haven't found anytime to do it....
soccer started....
school is still going strong....
still getting up before the birds to workout....literally!!
wondering if THIS weekend will be the one that I get caught up with life (I have been saying this for 3 weeks now)....
just wanted to reassure people I am still alive....
BARELY!! :)
Hope all is well with everyone, missed seeing you all at the class on Friday, but the country fair took priority at school....now that was fun, 34 students, stressed out about this huge project they were doing (trust me I know how stressed, as I had one in my home getting his done!!), looking forward to class on Friday, workout with Julianne on Thursday & well just really finding time for ME at somepoint, in the near, near future....
PS a nap sounds so heavenly!!!

The busiest time of my life....

I was speaking to a friend the other day, talking about all the different things that I was balancing & expressing how fitting an exercise program & healthy eating was the hurdle that I was overcoming day by day....
She was kind enough to remind me that RIGHT NOW is probably the busiest time of my life, and that this is a positive thing, because if I could make it work RIGHT NOW when I feel so overwhelmed & exhausted, then chances are I would be okay when life settles down!!
I look forward to my life settling down just a bit...I just found out yesterday that I will be done teaching 2 weeks earlier than I thought (one of those weeks being spring break), while part of me is sad to be done, a bigger part of me is excited to make ME a priority again & go back to occasional teaching....
I am learning to listen to my body in all sorts of ways....not just about hunger, but also how I am feeling mentally, physically, spiritually & emotionally....at times it scares me to see where I am heading in all these "departments", but then it thrills me to see where I have been & how much I have grown....
Let the countdown begin....T-minus 16 days until my life becomes mine again!!

AHHHHH......

....the weekend is here!!!
FINALLY!!!!

random ramblings

I ate a cookie, it tasted good...I felt guilt, I got over it!!
I didn't work out every day last week, I was okay with that, my body & mind was screaming louder than the treadmill!!
Matt & I created an incredible menu for the week & shopped together for everything, that was nice to get done!!
I am getting out of bed way earlier than should be legal to work out, but I am sleeping like a baby at night - I am glad about this....
I am trying to increase my knowledge about so much I am sure my brain is going to explode!!
My bike level was upped this week, as I worked out I screamed like I was in labor (we were the only ones there, no worries, I didn't scare anyone) & then told Matt having all 3 boys without an epidural was much more fun than that bike workout...now I cringe on the inside while riding, too many people around!! (Please go away so I can scream, it is a great stress reliever!!)
I had great chats with both Mary & Kathy!! Thanks for the support & listening ear!!
I am glad that I am doing this challenge with Matt, I couldn't imagine trying to change so much of my life without him next to me...at least this way he understands what I am experiencing!!
Thanks Honey!!

Not giving up

This week has been a challenge for me, I have felt extremely busy & overwhelmed with what my plate has on it right now...trying to figure out what is the most important & what can wait until the next day or even the next 6 weeks!!
I have felt frustrated with myself for not planning better on some of the days this week, I have felt the effects of it...
I know I need to give myself a break, but I feel like I am on a very fast moving merry-go-round that is going to run out of steam before I can enjoy the ride completely....I have always been a perfectionist & I don't like to do things just half way, I figure if I am only going to do a job partially then I shouldn't even be doing any of it....
However, I learned a valuable lesson this week while feeling the frustration of my non-existent planning, the most IMPORTANT part was that I DID NOT give up, even though I was only giving it half of me, that I couldn't do 100%, that was HUGE, I know that tomorrow will come & I can try to improve my day a little bit more, that I need to give myself credit for the things I DID do & not dwell on the things I didn't do....
So here is to another week, one that might go better, might not....I guess that is the best part of the story, it can be both an adventure AND a mystery!!!

The best birthday gifts ever

Okay, so I was really worried that I was going to get chocolates, dr. pepper & other yummy, yet not on my plan, items this year for my birthday....but instead I got:
**to get up at 4:15 to go work out before going to teach my class,
**to go to the jr. high with 94 11/12 year olds to learn about different classes,
**a huge container of strawberries to munch on,
**the best homemade cards from my boys,
**a beautiful bouquet of flowers from my husband (delivered at school),
**a classroom of wonderful young people that were on their best behavior,
**a gift card from Julianne (my trainer) to go to Oasis Yogurt for a fun, guilt free treat!!,
**cards that expressed what people admire in me,
**a nice rest/nap after school
**a peanut butter sandwich for lunch (this is one of my all time favorites)

It has been a good day....I am so blessed...
Here's to the next 40 years, may they be more healthy than the first 40!!
**but I am really, really craving cadbury mini eggs, why, I ask why!!?? he he